Tuesday, October 30, 2012


I spent the past weekend at the Nfb of colorado state convention.  During this conference.  I found myself nearly in tears.  Some of the events on saturday made me remember what happened too me.  I also rmembered what my dreams was and how I worked so hard to make it come true. 
Now that I am home and alone.  I am wondering how I can make my dream a reallity again, or how I can either rebuild the past dream, or begin building a new one with things that I am currently doing.
I have no support for me even thinking about re-opening my painful wounds from the time that my masters in severe needs vision was terminated.  I have to decide whether to continue to let that go, or to put myself thru the pain againl.  I really have to think this through.  The shortage of teachers of blind students have me thinking about this more. 
The nfb of colorado didn't help me at all.  So this weekend I questioned whether I should go somewhere else and just leave colorado.  as I look at mhy support system here in colorado.  I believe that leaving colorado might be something that I need to do for mhyself and for me to get a new start.  I think I may have run out of things here to support me. 
One good thing has come out of this is that I am returning to my writing. 

children and reading

I love reading children's books.  I find that they have messages for us all.  My favorites will make it to my goodreads shelf.  Just to name a few of my favorites. 
knuffle bunny
the watsons go to alabama
the hunger games trillogy
lilly's purple plastic purse
speakthe snowy day
A cane in her hand
Light a single candle
bread and jam for frances
sarah plain and tall, and the subsequent books.
Little house books
anne of green gables and subsequent books.
Finally, star girl, any will hobs books, and both when zakary bever came to town, and to kill a mockingbird.  just a few of my favorite books, which I am including the NFB Kernel Books. 
the National Federation of the blind Kernel Books are on my list.  However they are written mor for adults.  Some of the stories can be read to children.
the first is called what color is the sun.
well, happy reading.

Monday, October 8, 2012

Life and the power of change

Even though I am changing.  I am becoming more myself again.  I am now living alone.  Its just me and my PJ.  I do miss my roommate and the anemals she had.  Yet, it is nice to re-discover who I am again.  One day I will get rid of the loneliness, the unhappiness, the disappointment, and the broken and distroyed dreams.  I have nearly given up on my dreams being restored, and me discovering new ones.
Restored dreams and end of disappointments are all done in books.  This is why I still love to read and to lose myself in the world of books.  Real life is not like books.  I wish life would be like some books.  Well, I am changing and yet I am still becoming myself.