tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-49279443257810680952024-03-07T23:13:32.072-08:00readergirl5674A blog that focuses on my thoughts, ideas, reading, and my opinions, and various other topics .Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.comBlogger84125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-17027491477689138022012-11-03T22:22:00.002-07:002012-11-03T22:22:43.142-07:00thoughtsI just finished the aasociate by phillip margolin. A pharmeceutical lawyer has been fired, and later charged with murder of the boss that fired him. Amanda jaffi defends him. eventually he is acquited.<br />
I enjoyed the book just like margolins other bpooks. I couldn't put it down. I give it 3 out of 5. Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-61840947713001778452012-10-30T04:58:00.002-07:002012-10-30T04:58:59.191-07:00blindnessI spent the past weekend at the Nfb of colorado state convention. During this conference. I found myself nearly in tears. Some of the events on saturday made me remember what happened too me. I also rmembered what my dreams was and how I worked so hard to make it come true. <br />
Now that I am home and alone. I am wondering how I can make my dream a reallity again, or how I can either rebuild the past dream, or begin building a new one with things that I am currently doing.<br />
I have no support for me even thinking about re-opening my painful wounds from the time that my masters in severe needs vision was terminated. I have to decide whether to continue to let that go, or to put myself thru the pain againl. I really have to think this through. The shortage of teachers of blind students have me thinking about this more. <br />
The nfb of colorado didn't help me at all. So this weekend I questioned whether I should go somewhere else and just leave colorado. as I look at mhy support system here in colorado. I believe that leaving colorado might be something that I need to do for mhyself and for me to get a new start. I think I may have run out of things here to support me. <br />
One good thing has come out of this is that I am returning to my writing. <br />
Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-42234979512715644462012-10-30T04:46:00.000-07:002012-10-30T04:46:10.961-07:00children and readingI love reading children's books. I find that they have messages for us all. My favorites will make it to my goodreads shelf. Just to name a few of my favorites. <br />
knuffle bunny<br />
the watsons go to alabama<br />
the hunger games trillogy<br />
lilly's purple plastic purse<br />
speakthe snowy day<br />
A cane in her hand<br />
Light a single candle<br />
bread and jam for frances<br />
sarah plain and tall, and the subsequent books.<br />
Little house books<br />
anne of green gables and subsequent books.<br />
Finally, star girl, any will hobs books, and both when zakary bever came to town, and to kill a mockingbird. just a few of my favorite books, which I am including the NFB Kernel Books. <br />
the National Federation of the blind Kernel Books are on my list. However they are written mor for adults. Some of the stories can be read to children.<br />
the first is called what color is the sun.<br />
well, happy reading.Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-39483132866425746072012-10-08T13:20:00.000-07:002012-10-08T13:20:18.515-07:00Life and the power of changeEven though I am changing. I am becoming more myself again. I am now living alone. Its just me and my PJ. I do miss my roommate and the anemals she had. Yet, it is nice to re-discover who I am again. One day I will get rid of the loneliness, the unhappiness, the disappointment, and the broken and distroyed dreams. I have nearly given up on my dreams being restored, and me discovering new ones.<br />
Restored dreams and end of disappointments are all done in books. This is why I still love to read and to lose myself in the world of books. Real life is not like books. I wish life would be like some books. Well, I am changing and yet I am still becoming myself.<br />
Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-41849569717621431262012-06-13T12:59:00.001-07:002012-06-13T12:59:07.787-07:00fifty shadesthere is a lot of hype concerning the fifty shades trillogy. I like to read things like this at time. So I was planing to read one of the three books and then make my decision. However, I believe that many people are wanting to read this book because of it being banned in places, and they hear about the sex in the book. Oh and because others are reading it. I wonder if the big hoopla is because a woman allows herself to be a sex slave is why its such a horrible book. This is a touchy subject and its out of the box. It doesn't surprise me that a book where a woman chooses to express her sexuality would be rideculed. Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-4501292417509758032012-06-13T12:50:00.001-07:002012-06-13T12:50:08.580-07:00NFB CO: The Voice: Boycott Goodwill Industries<a href="http://nfbco.blogspot.com/2012/06/boycott-goodwill-industries.html?spref=bl">NFB CO: The Voice: Boycott Goodwill Industries</a>: The following link a press release from the National Federation of the blind urging the boycott of Goodwill Industries. Although Goodwill ...Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-1914885582030600982011-11-07T18:55:00.001-08:002011-11-07T18:55:29.177-08:00gnfbco convention.This past weekend I attended the Nfb of colorado convention. I must be honest. I wasn't looking forward to this convention at all. My attitude until a few days before convention was not very favorable. I was just going to go and fulfill my commitments and have just a little fun. After discussing this with my therapist and in a group session, I let myself develop a better outlook on the convention. I also must say that I have not ever dreaded going to any national or state convention. I also somewhat regretted going to national convention. But I focused on those that I spent time with there and the regret wasn't as strong. <br />With my new outlook in hand, I went to convention. I actually got the boost that I always got from attending conventions. It had been a long time since I have gotten this at a convention. Many of you understand what I am talking about, that feeling of motivation. It was really good to reconnect with old friends, and continue to build new friendships. If I had not gone to convention, I would have missed out on so much and would have only deprived myself. I also wouldnt have gotten to meet an online friend luann in person and to spend time with her. I wouldn't have redescovered my commitments to myself, or the commitments to other people who are blind and or visually impaired. Finally, I wouldn't have gotten to laugh as much as I did this weekend. So now, I am happy that I went to convention. I fulfilled my commitments. I reconnected with friends, and met new ones. And, most of all I laughed a lot.<br />So thank you to all of you who helped me this weekend. There are just too damned many of you to name. But you all know who you are. Big smile. Oh and for those who got on my case because I said that I hated elvis. I will tone the word down and say, I really dislike Elvis! Yes, I know he has a couple of good songs. But I still dislike him. Here is a tidbit for you all. Elvis is good music for someone going through a manic and bipolar episode. I learned that from a former roommate.Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-4037203297015512592011-10-26T10:27:00.001-07:002011-10-26T10:27:57.796-07:00Well, I want to spend christmas and my birthday in Dothan. And introduce PJ to the fam. Now just have to find. 416.00 dollars for the ticket. I have half of it. Oh well might have to try something different because this price will probably go up. Darn!Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-27599662782313049712011-10-23T21:59:00.001-07:002011-10-23T21:59:23.307-07:00thoughtsMy recovery from knee surgery is going well. I found out that the doctor had to save what he could of the cartelidge under my knee cap.. If he hadn't repaired what he did I wouldn't have anything left and would probably have to have a knee replacement.<br />Obviously this is really stressing me out. The continuous swelling is not helping either. I am trying really hard not to push myself. I am trying to do what I have been told.<br />But I am very stressed, and its causing me to feel somewhat helpless. I am also wondering if I have really bad luck, or if god is just not listening. <br />I had a friend tell me that I am just confused, and struggling with my faith and with many things.<br />I wanted to say tell me something I didn't know.<br />Even though things are bleak and seems like I have hit the bottom of some dark hole in a dark place. I still find my little thread of hope and one possitive thing that will help me grow and feel thankful.<br />Today was the friendships and the beautiful day that I was thankful for.<br />Now I am going to go and enjoy a book and get a goodnight sleep. I am leaving everything to someone who is in control. That isn't me. <br />Have a blessed night and I will post more often.Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-21516863259998134602011-10-23T21:47:00.001-07:002011-10-23T21:47:49.553-07:00hope continuedAfter reading my earlier post from today. I still have more to say.<br />Hope is something that you never get rid of. Even when it seems like there isn't any hope. There is a little tiny thread that eventually becomes longer. Hope is also something restorative. Its also a source of strength.<br />There have been many times where I felt hopeless. Even as soon as during recent times. But then there is that tiny thread or a tiny glimmer, that you are able to reach for. And, usually I begin to think that the things that I have lost my hope in aren't as bad as others. I begin to see how lucky I am and that the little thread of hope will replace the huge wall of hopelessness and continue to grow from there. India Arie has stated in a song there's hope. the lyrics reminds us all to continue to be grateful for what we have and to think of all of those that have nothing but hope and they still find a way to smile.Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-78067280036728992102011-10-23T14:43:00.001-07:002011-10-23T14:43:54.976-07:00wordsNever let words distroy your self-esteem. It is hard when you care about someone. Especially when you care about the person. Words don't have power to hurt you, unless that person means a lot to you. <br />But always remember that you are a good person. Hopefully, you will have a lot of good friends that will keep reminding you oof the fact that you are a wonderful and good person.Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-49863379585228434392011-10-23T14:20:00.001-07:002011-10-23T14:20:46.127-07:00where is the hopeI am feeling not very hopeful about anything. I have just been going through the motions. I am afraid to hope any more. It seems that everytime I hope I get let down and end up hurt as well.<br />Why should I bother? What is the reason for hope?<br />As much as I want to not have hope, there is a part of me that really wants to hold on to a little thread of hope. I guess this is good.Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-58592995543625904172011-10-23T14:15:00.001-07:002011-10-23T14:15:06.172-07:00cryBlog title...Things have been somewhat rough for me. I have cried some. But I haven't cried a lot. I haven't had one of those really good cries where everything is just soaked and I have used lots of tissues. Aftewards, I have this wonderful feeling of relief and feel stronger.<br />As wone we are not supposed to cry. Many femaninests believe that crying is a sign of weakness. We shouldn't cry at all. I know that for me its the best thing and a stress reliever.<br />I was talking too a friend that informed me that its okay to be emotional. She sent me the following: CRYING Doesn't mean you're weak, it means you've been too strong for too long. <br />This is so true and made me feel better about letting myself cry. Now its to the point where I can't really cry any more.Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-74008517015743727632011-10-23T14:07:00.001-07:002011-10-23T14:07:07.735-07:00relationshipsRelationships come in all types. There is also lots of advice about relationships. Here are Keys to A GREAT RELATIONSHIp and ten ways to love<br /> <br />6 Keys to A GREAT RELATIONSHIP <br />1. Friendship <br />2. Honesty <br />3. Trust <br />4. Communication <br />5. Understanding <br />6. Freedom<br />10 ways to love <br />trust <br />forgive <br />pray <br />promise<br />give<br />share<br />enjoy<br />speak<br />listen<br />answerMelissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-8086603465551552092011-10-20T21:39:00.001-07:002011-10-20T21:39:13.405-07:00found out today that the doctor had two choices, remove the second piece with the tears in it completely.He chose to repair it. Besides, if he removed this piece, there woud be nothing under my knee cap.<br />Now there is a lot of swelling that is all over my leg and ankle. I just keep saying that it will end and I will be back to normal. They finally thinking that the blood clot history. I no it won't happen again. I know I don't get second chances with things. this will be the case here. Noone iMelissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-31087954904754664102011-10-20T21:15:00.001-07:002011-10-20T21:15:33.471-07:00Friendships can be special, they can be a blessing, and they can be a grate support system. Then friendships can be hurtful, lonely, and unsupportive. I have had many people come and go in my life. I have grown and learned from many of them Those who have stayed around are a big support and are very special too me. Those who have left and those who are leaving will always be in my memory. I will move on and wish you well and hope that you will find happiness. This is the most mature way to handle this. Its not worth it or in my nature to take the immature way out spending time trying to hurt those who are leaving my life. My time is spent in better ways. <br />As a quote sent to me long ago states, "Some people come into your life as blessings, others come into your life as lessons." I consider myself very grateful and blessed to have the people who are my blessings in my life. Those who are lessons, and those who will become a lesson I can only say thank you and again wish you well. I will always be there for you when and if you need me. <br />My fake friends I feel hurt by you and yet angry with me because I believed you. eventually, you will leave my life and won't be missed.Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-89639222912373551532011-10-14T14:54:00.001-07:002011-10-14T14:54:47.914-07:00still recovering. Have a minor set back. The swelling won't subside. Its spread to my ankle. The good news is that I finally got the stitches out today. Its still painful though.Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-74033745325243485462010-10-15T00:01:00.001-07:002010-10-15T00:01:39.561-07:00Its friday.Glad the week is over.<br />This week and last week have been rough for me.<br />However, I am surviving. I am hoping that I can receive a few triumphs dispersed throughout the storms.<br />I guess I will have to continue to take it all in stride, and continue to be thankful.Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-46521952918455609932010-10-15T00:00:00.001-07:002010-10-15T00:00:16.793-07:00reading list with ratings1. an unquiet grave<br />2. sworn to silence<br />3. the devil's punchbowl<br />4. stalked<br />5. hear no evilMelissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-75822853609178238002010-07-20T12:11:00.001-07:002010-07-20T12:11:27.195-07:00Blind Missouri couple is getting their baby girl back! my thoughts and commentary on this issue.Yes, and thank goodness. Blind Missouri couple is getting their baby girl back, tomorrow!!! CPS wrongfully took the baby girl before they could leave the hospital, 2 months<br />ago, just because the couple was blind! Judge was appauled! Luckily, this is coming to a happy ending, but this situation happens more than people realize. Unfortunately, society still have lots of misconceptions concerning blind people. This is why we still have cases like this. However, as blind people, many of us believe in these misconceptions as well. one major misconception is that sight is always better. For example, You should only marry a sighted persohn. Sighted kids must take care of their blind parents. Even Educators of children who are blind emphasize this idea of sight being better. I was told many times that sighted people never ask for help. Having sight is crucial to everything. I have experienced this more than once in my life. As recently as last summer.<br />I had a woman doctor assume that because I am totally blind that I would not be able to tell what was going on with my body. She asked me, how did I know that I was having my monthly cycle. In other words, How did I know this being that I am totally blind. <br />I am aware that we live in an ocular centric world and we are viewed as outcasts and as misfits. However, will we ever fit in to this culture? I believe that we will always be striving to fit in because we have to use different ways to see things. This is something that a totally sighted person does not have to do at all. Even whin you have some sight you still have to struggle and face many types of discrimination. Many people probably think that you are faking your vision problems. People may also think that since you have some sight, you must help out those who are blind. This treatment also strengthens the misconception that any sight is better than being blind. <br />This story has a happy ending. But I am sure there is another story like this occurring right now as I write this. May be as blind and visually impaired people, whin we start not supporting this idea of sight means better. then this story and many others may stop occuring. Its a dream that may come true someday. However, I am very skeptical. Yet, supportive of taking the steps to live successfully in this ocular centric world, and culture. <br />Anyone agree or disagree with me? Please share.Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-83124629797053877332010-07-18T19:03:00.001-07:002010-07-18T19:03:00.734-07:00just for the blind.Hello my blind friends. Here is another twist to my previous post.<br />What have you not done as a blind person?<br />Please post your answers in the comment sections.<br /><br />Here is my answer.<br />Never been scky diving.Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-58148272714953148342010-07-18T18:47:00.001-07:002010-07-18T18:47:33.691-07:00what you haven't doneBlog title...What haven't you done? <br /><br /><br />Please place in the comments with what you haven't done or let me know about someone you know who has not done something. I'm looking for everyday things that we all assume everyone has done. Examples:<br />Never worn earrings<br />Never been to the movies<br />Never owned a cell phone<br /><br />or they can be age-related (young or old) as in:<br />Never used a rotary phone<br />Never wore a watch<br />Never used an MP3 device.<br />Never used a record player<br />Never used a typewriterMelissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-893712710365593932010-06-06T09:18:00.001-07:002010-06-06T09:18:46.481-07:00today Marty had to take patches to the pet's emergency room.<br />His balance is off, and he is having trouble seeing.<br /><br />So, please pray for marty and patches cat.Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-11434234380712220222010-05-26T14:58:00.000-07:002010-05-26T14:58:40.298-07:00http://www.9news.com/rss/article.aspx?storyid=139758<a href="http://www.9news.com/rss/article.aspx?storyid=139758">http://www.9news.com/rss/article.aspx?storyid=139758</a>Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4927944325781068095.post-79990443948598665172010-05-25T20:23:00.001-07:002010-05-25T20:23:16.360-07:00RIP. I Miss you all.We all have lost loved ones. It makes us sad sad. We grieve for the. But deep down we know that they are still in our hearts. They have gone to a better place and are guiding us through our daily lives. So rest in peace(RIP) all of you. From my twin sister, to my grandpa grady. From my Uncle Terry, to my cousin Mia, and to my many cousins, friends, and others that are no longer with us. We will see you again one sweet day. Just continue to be a guardian angel and a guide each day. I must say this.<br />God saw you getting tired and a cure was not to be. So He put His arms around you and whispered "come to me." With tearful eyes I watched you, and saw you pass away. Although I loved you dearly,I could not make you stay. A golden heart stopped beating, hard working hands at rest. God broke my heart to prove to me, He only ......takes............the BEST.Melissa Greenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02027511596144176702noreply@blogger.com0