thoughts

I just finished the aasociate by phillip margolin.  A pharmeceutical lawyer has been fired, and later charged with murder of the boss that fired him.  Amanda jaffi defends him.  eventually he is acquited.
I enjoyed the book just like margolins other bpooks.  I couldn't put it down.  I give it 3 out of 5. 

blindness

I spent the past weekend at the Nfb of colorado state convention.  During this conference.  I found myself nearly in tears.  Some of the events on saturday made me remember what happened too me.  I also rmembered what my dreams was and how I worked so hard to make it come true. 
Now that I am home and alone.  I am wondering how I can make my dream a reallity again, or how I can either rebuild the past dream, or begin building a new one with things that I am currently doing.
I have no support for me even thinking about re-opening my painful wounds from the time that my masters in severe needs vision was terminated.  I have to decide whether to continue to let that go, or to put myself thru the pain againl.  I really have to think this through.  The shortage of teachers of blind students have me thinking about this more. 
The nfb of colorado didn't help me at all.  So this weekend I questioned whether I should go somewhere else and just leave colorado.  as I look at mhy support system here in colorado.  I believe that leaving colorado might be something that I need to do for mhyself and for me to get a new start.  I think I may have run out of things here to support me. 
One good thing has come out of this is that I am returning to my writing. 

children and reading

I love reading children's books.  I find that they have messages for us all.  My favorites will make it to my goodreads shelf.  Just to name a few of my favorites. 
knuffle bunny
the watsons go to alabama
the hunger games trillogy
lilly's purple plastic purse
speakthe snowy day
A cane in her hand
Light a single candle
bread and jam for frances
sarah plain and tall, and the subsequent books.
Little house books
anne of green gables and subsequent books.
Finally, star girl, any will hobs books, and both when zakary bever came to town, and to kill a mockingbird.  just a few of my favorite books, which I am including the NFB Kernel Books. 
the National Federation of the blind Kernel Books are on my list.  However they are written mor for adults.  Some of the stories can be read to children.
the first is called what color is the sun.
well, happy reading.

Life and the power of change

Even though I am changing.  I am becoming more myself again.  I am now living alone.  Its just me and my PJ.  I do miss my roommate and the anemals she had.  Yet, it is nice to re-discover who I am again.  One day I will get rid of the loneliness, the unhappiness, the disappointment, and the broken and distroyed dreams.  I have nearly given up on my dreams being restored, and me discovering new ones.
Restored dreams and end of disappointments are all done in books.  This is why I still love to read and to lose myself in the world of books.  Real life is not like books.  I wish life would be like some books.  Well, I am changing and yet I am still becoming myself.
 

fifty shades

there is a lot of hype concerning the fifty shades trillogy.  I like to read things like this at time.  So I was planing to read one of the three books and then make my decision.  However, I believe that many people are wanting to read this book because of it being banned in places, and they hear about the sex in the book.  Oh and because others are reading it.  I wonder if the big hoopla is because a woman allows herself to be a sex slave is why its such a horrible book.  This is a touchy subject and its out of the box.  It doesn't surprise me that a book where a woman chooses to express her sexuality would be rideculed. 

NFB CO: The Voice: Boycott Goodwill Industries

NFB CO: The Voice: Boycott Goodwill Industries: The following link a press release from the National Federation of the blind urging the boycott of Goodwill Industries.  Although Goodwill ...

gnfbco convention.

This past weekend I attended the Nfb of colorado convention. I must be honest. I wasn't looking forward to this convention at all. My attitude until a few days before convention was not very favorable. I was just going to go and fulfill my commitments and have just a little fun. After discussing this with my therapist and in a group session, I let myself develop a better outlook on the convention. I also must say that I have not ever dreaded going to any national or state convention. I also somewhat regretted going to national convention. But I focused on those that I spent time with there and the regret wasn't as strong.
With my new outlook in hand, I went to convention. I actually got the boost that I always got from attending conventions. It had been a long time since I have gotten this at a convention. Many of you understand what I am talking about, that feeling of motivation. It was really good to reconnect with old friends, and continue to build new friendships. If I had not gone to convention, I would have missed out on so much and would have only deprived myself. I also wouldnt have gotten to meet an online friend luann in person and to spend time with her. I wouldn't have redescovered my commitments to myself, or the commitments to other people who are blind and or visually impaired. Finally, I wouldn't have gotten to laugh as much as I did this weekend. So now, I am happy that I went to convention. I fulfilled my commitments. I reconnected with friends, and met new ones. And, most of all I laughed a lot.
So thank you to all of you who helped me this weekend. There are just too damned many of you to name. But you all know who you are. Big smile. Oh and for those who got on my case because I said that I hated elvis. I will tone the word down and say, I really dislike Elvis! Yes, I know he has a couple of good songs. But I still dislike him. Here is a tidbit for you all. Elvis is good music for someone going through a manic and bipolar episode. I learned that from a former roommate.